Feeling a great mix of emotions lately. Right now it is anger and frustration. ive spent 3 years in college studying a subject i love, and yet it seems that i can go nowhere with it?!?!!?!?!
people always ask me from time to time, what exactly is linguistics? and i always have trouble explaining it properly, but all i know is i enjoy it. after tonnes and tonnes of research i have realised that it seems to be a useless subject!
you can get into translations and interpretation. one problem, i dont have a second language (due to the fact that im sooooo not good with languages!!!!).
hmmmm....... i think im destined to be a bum :)
Friday, January 23, 2009
Thursday, January 22, 2009
PERSPECTIVE!!!
so im just in bed now about to head off to the land of nod. thought id come here for a quick post first. went to the cinema this evening with the boyf and he has managed to cheer me up...... i still dont feel 100% perfect, but im close to it.... closer to it than i have been for the last two weeks so YAY!!
I think he must have magical powers :)
so much more positive tonight, have a plan, and even better than that, i have PERSPECTIVE!! my goodness perspective is a great thing! I can finally see that my world is not ending and that there is light at the end of the tunnel!!!
anyway goodnight everyone :)
I think he must have magical powers :)
so much more positive tonight, have a plan, and even better than that, i have PERSPECTIVE!! my goodness perspective is a great thing! I can finally see that my world is not ending and that there is light at the end of the tunnel!!!
anyway goodnight everyone :)
The eternal worrier
so im back again! this blog has started to make me feel better already so im going to keep it up! I thought I would discuss my next problem that has me feeling down.... this is a biggie for me as it has been hiding in my head for quite a while now. This is one of those things that i know I NEED to sort out, but absolutely dread the idea of even thinking about it so i keep putting it off and off and now ive ran out of time and cant put it off anymore!
first of all its quite important to understand that i am a worrier. now i mean a serious, constant worrier. my family and friends dont really understand this aspect of my personality as they say everyone worries and gets nervous sometimes, but nobody seems to suffer from it at this extreme rate as i do. I worry about EVERYTHING! i will get nervous over EVERYTHING!
right now i am in college studying Linguistics. i really enjoy this subject but i cant for the life of me decide what to do next year, as this is my final semester (AH!!!). I always wanted to do a course in college that would just automatically lead me into a job, but this is not the case. I have been to guidance counselors who tell me i can work in the translation industry (ha not without a second language you cant!!) or i can get into working with dictionaries etc etc the list of random jobs is unreal. but unforunately, I dont want any of it.
I dont feel like im ready for the real world yet, so i decided id do one more year in college doing a masters in linguistics. but then i started to worry about what would happen once i left college then. nothing will have changed only the fact that i have both a BA and an MA in a subject that is useless (although i love it!).
Ive always wanted to do speech and language therapy, but there is only one course open to me here in Ireland to do so and its next to impossible to get into it. so lately ive been focusing on tryin to get work experience, as this is essential for being even considered for this course. i am having a very tough time trying to find work experience also. but now this week ive gone back to my initial worry of what happens if i dont get into this course (which is highly likely)! ive researched courses in the UK (even though i really wouldnt want to leave ireland for college) and found nothing really there as they are all similarly difficult to gain access to.
I have to admit i have been moping around my house for a few days as this dreaded thought has been bothering me, but i need to cop on and stop now. It isnt life or death. I am still young with plenty of time to define my future. I will continue to send out CV's for work experience and on Monday I shall go and speak to somebody in the Linguistics department and tell them my problem and see what they think about the masters and what I could do afterwards.
I MUST STOP WORRYING!!!!
talk soon :)
first of all its quite important to understand that i am a worrier. now i mean a serious, constant worrier. my family and friends dont really understand this aspect of my personality as they say everyone worries and gets nervous sometimes, but nobody seems to suffer from it at this extreme rate as i do. I worry about EVERYTHING! i will get nervous over EVERYTHING!
right now i am in college studying Linguistics. i really enjoy this subject but i cant for the life of me decide what to do next year, as this is my final semester (AH!!!). I always wanted to do a course in college that would just automatically lead me into a job, but this is not the case. I have been to guidance counselors who tell me i can work in the translation industry (ha not without a second language you cant!!) or i can get into working with dictionaries etc etc the list of random jobs is unreal. but unforunately, I dont want any of it.
I dont feel like im ready for the real world yet, so i decided id do one more year in college doing a masters in linguistics. but then i started to worry about what would happen once i left college then. nothing will have changed only the fact that i have both a BA and an MA in a subject that is useless (although i love it!).
Ive always wanted to do speech and language therapy, but there is only one course open to me here in Ireland to do so and its next to impossible to get into it. so lately ive been focusing on tryin to get work experience, as this is essential for being even considered for this course. i am having a very tough time trying to find work experience also. but now this week ive gone back to my initial worry of what happens if i dont get into this course (which is highly likely)! ive researched courses in the UK (even though i really wouldnt want to leave ireland for college) and found nothing really there as they are all similarly difficult to gain access to.
I have to admit i have been moping around my house for a few days as this dreaded thought has been bothering me, but i need to cop on and stop now. It isnt life or death. I am still young with plenty of time to define my future. I will continue to send out CV's for work experience and on Monday I shall go and speak to somebody in the Linguistics department and tell them my problem and see what they think about the masters and what I could do afterwards.
I MUST STOP WORRYING!!!!
talk soon :)
been feeling a bit down lately
ok. so I suppose this is my first REAL post!
The reason I originally decided to start this blog is because ive been feeling really down and sad lately and wanted somewhere to vent my feelings so that maybe it would help to make me feel better.
I hope people dont think I am always this depressing, however, as the funny thing is that usually im a happy cheerful person. usually i look at my life and think, wow i am so lucky to have such a good life.
but lately, its been different. nothing great has changed to cause this shift in feelings though. I've been looking up depression etc. online and found many people get depressed when dumped by a spouse, lost a job, had a baby, or grieving the loss of someone.
I have to admit this kind of made me a little bit ashamed.... I mean.... these are real problems... real-life tragedies that could easily make anyone feel sad and lonely. So whats my excuse? Why have I suddenly decided that my life is crap, when nothing this serious has happened to me?
....well... as this is my first post i think it may take me a little while before i fully open up and explain everything ... but for now I will just say that I have a problem with my dad.... lets just say we really dont get along (putting it mildly!!).... but to be honest its always been like this... ive always fought with him, and yes this does get me down and sad but usually i can snap out of it more or less straight away... not this time though... and thats whats bugging me! why are these sad feelings hanging around for so long??
hmmmm im not even sure if this post will make sense to anyone as ive just blurted out all my feelings in one go! I think i will leave it at that and talk about the other reasons as to why ive been feeling so low and sad the next time i post a message...
...yeah...i think ill leave it now and see what response i get from this, see if i feel any better after writing this.
I'll be back soon though :)
The reason I originally decided to start this blog is because ive been feeling really down and sad lately and wanted somewhere to vent my feelings so that maybe it would help to make me feel better.
I hope people dont think I am always this depressing, however, as the funny thing is that usually im a happy cheerful person. usually i look at my life and think, wow i am so lucky to have such a good life.
but lately, its been different. nothing great has changed to cause this shift in feelings though. I've been looking up depression etc. online and found many people get depressed when dumped by a spouse, lost a job, had a baby, or grieving the loss of someone.
I have to admit this kind of made me a little bit ashamed.... I mean.... these are real problems... real-life tragedies that could easily make anyone feel sad and lonely. So whats my excuse? Why have I suddenly decided that my life is crap, when nothing this serious has happened to me?
....well... as this is my first post i think it may take me a little while before i fully open up and explain everything ... but for now I will just say that I have a problem with my dad.... lets just say we really dont get along (putting it mildly!!).... but to be honest its always been like this... ive always fought with him, and yes this does get me down and sad but usually i can snap out of it more or less straight away... not this time though... and thats whats bugging me! why are these sad feelings hanging around for so long??
hmmmm im not even sure if this post will make sense to anyone as ive just blurted out all my feelings in one go! I think i will leave it at that and talk about the other reasons as to why ive been feeling so low and sad the next time i post a message...
...yeah...i think ill leave it now and see what response i get from this, see if i feel any better after writing this.
I'll be back soon though :)
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
hi
Ok so this is the first time i have ever done anything like this.... i doubt anyone will end up reading this but just in case i think its only right that i introduce myself!
Im just a girl who has lately not been feeling like herself and thought that maybe if i came here and vented my feelings i might start to feel a bit better... a bit happier and lighter perhaps?
The plan is that this will become some kind of diary for me so im going to keep it anonymous as I want to be able to talk about things I dont even talk to my friends to about.
As i said... im sure noone will end up stumbling on this but just in case, i wanted to say HI! ... i'd love to actually meet a few people here who might start to understand me (as most people dont ever understand me!!). anyways ill see how this goes.... :)
Im just a girl who has lately not been feeling like herself and thought that maybe if i came here and vented my feelings i might start to feel a bit better... a bit happier and lighter perhaps?
The plan is that this will become some kind of diary for me so im going to keep it anonymous as I want to be able to talk about things I dont even talk to my friends to about.
As i said... im sure noone will end up stumbling on this but just in case, i wanted to say HI! ... i'd love to actually meet a few people here who might start to understand me (as most people dont ever understand me!!). anyways ill see how this goes.... :)
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